Start out Strong

Got a good start to the week by working out with trainer. Did better with push ups this week, and with skull crushers, which made me happy since I am focusing on building upper body strength. Also had a decent food day, and I can feel the difference already. I am working to dispense with the "just a little bit" mentality -- just a little bit of this or that won't matter. All those little bits add up, in a big and bad way.

Week in Review : Anxious

Instead of losing weight this week, I showed a gain of 2 lbs at my Friday weigh in. I will admit, I am surprised. No, my diet was not perfect, but sooo much better than December diet, and yet -- a gain. I feel a tinge of panic to see that number. I know what I need to do, and that is, buckle down and commit to clean eating. So I won't whine, but just make this week better. On the plus side, my fitness routine has been pretty good, and overall I feel fairly strong.

Truthiness

I updated myfitnesspal stats to reflect my true current weight. Surprisingly, it was not that anxiety-provoking to up my weight by 10 pounds. When I first lost 40 lbs, I lost it the "right" way -- clean eating and working out. When I was down to 50 lbs lost, it was because of eating very little -- but very little junk. Yes, you can lose weight on wine and sugar. No, you should not! It was not sustainable, and so the weight returned. I am ready again to do it the right way.

Week in Review

All in all, not a bad week. I will only get 5x exercise in, instead of 6. Bad planning on my part, as I forgot I was going out to dinner on Friday, and took a rest day on Monday. I was going to double up on exercise today, but the truth is my body is tired, and I don't want to push it too much. I tracked my food on myfitnesspal, and while my calories were ok, my sugar was too high. I have a better plan for the coming week, and am excited about it. Aiming for 80 g protein per day, and no more than 45 g sugar. I lost 3 lbs this past week, but hard to be revved up about that when I am still 11 above my lowest weight. Still, no choice but to move forward from where I am.

Motivation

I am not a big believer in looking for motivation, but instead creating a plan, and sticking to it. However, sometimes motivation comes unexpectedly. I ordered 2 Prana items through Zappos. Prana has nice quality clothing in styles I like -- a little pricey, but worth it. I ordered size Large, which fits me in most brands. I don't need extra large anymore, and can occasionally fit into a Medium. Well, the sweater dress fits, but it too tight to look good. Now this pissed me off (at myself of course) ... over the summer, 10 pounds ago, I would have looked awesome in this dress!. The hoodie is also a tad tight. Just gives me motivation to stick to my plan! I am not returning them. A strange bit of motivation ... for some reason Jillian Michaels in Extreme Shed and Shred looks fantastic to me. Now I have been looking at her for years, and yeah of course she is fit, but for some reason in this DVD all I could think was "I want to look like that!" No, I probably won't get to that level, but still, it encourages me to workout to tone up. Don't require motivation, but take it when it comes .....

Tracking

I am pleased that I met my workout goals this week. 6x Monday : 1st workout with trainer Wednesday : 5K on treadmill Thursday : Jillian Michaels Shred Friday: Brazil Butt Saturday : Jillian Michaels Extreme Shed and Shred Sunday : 5 miles at track Today I kept my calories at about 1400 (right on), and sugar at 41 g, which is ok. Fat was a little high, due to 3 oz steak at dinner, and protein a little lower than I would like. But overall, I feel a sense of control. To lose weight I have to stick to 1400-1500 calories per day. It doesn't seem like much. At 175 pounds it seems like it would take more to maintain my weight. But I am 45 and alas, age matters. I can eat fine at 1400 calories. It is all habit. But of course it does not allow for much wiggle room. The Extreme Shed and Shred is soooo hard, but a lot of fun. Not just the basic weight moves, but some kick boxing, yoga and capoeira thrown in as well.

Crybaby

I am not sure why I was going to wait until next week to start tracking my food? Just felt like being a big baby I guess. Instead I started tracking it yesterday. Yesterday was not a bad day. Today I did not eat too many calories, but way too much sugar. On the plus side, I will meet my goal of exercising 6x this week. It was a challenge because working out with my trainer on Monday really did incapacitate me. That is *not* being a baby -- the first workout has dreadful aftermath. But I did 5K on Wednesday night, weight workout yesterday, and Brazil Butt today. Will cap it off with workouts on Saturday and Sunday. One way or another I will get back on track.