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Pittsburgh, PA, United States
Six years ago I decided (age) 42 would be my magic number. I stepped on the scale for the first time in a LONG time. It was a BIG number, it was a SCARY number, but mostly I knew I had to own that number. I lost 40 pounds, leaving the obese category behind. In 2014 I committed myself to working out HARD and a low sugar diet, losing more weight and gaining nice definition. Then life happened, and I lost momentum, gaining some weight back. My goals now are different, and include completing my first ever marathon at age 48. GULP! You can read about the next part of my journey here.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

That's Some High Quality H2O

Today is the day I start overcoming my resistance to drinking water. I have no idea why I find it so hard to consume water, it is ridiculous. I will start small, with a goal of 32 oz today.

Friday, July 30, 2010

No Joy from the Scale Today

Well, I was hoping to reach 10 lbs lost by today, but am at a net of 8.5 lost. I was 1 lb less today than yesterday, and I was good about limiting calories during the week. It was a challenging week ... very tired after last weekend traveling, and had some appts this week that kept me busy. I am not really discouraged. I will get there!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Self Doubt

I am almost 5 weeks into my weight loss quest. For the first time yesterday I had thoughts of self doubt. "I won't be able to lose this weight" Where do these thoughts come from? I am one pound away from my first goal (10 lbs). I had a bit of a weight gain over the weekend (I did indulge a bit), but no different from the previous three weekends. There are so many things I HAVE done in my life, of course I will be able to do this too.
I am sure these same thoughts were a factor in my previous (failed) weight loss attempts, but this is the first time I really made note of them. And blogged them. That is what makes this time different!

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Back on the Horse

Had a wonderful time at my 25th class reunion. While I did not gorge at all, I didn't count calories either. Starting at lunch today, I began to tally what I was eating. I am hungry now, but nothing a cup of 0 cal tea and early bedtime won't solve.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Weigh in day

My original goal was to lose 10 lbs by today. Well I lost 9 , which is not too shabby! I did overeat tonight, but I can hardly regret it ... my homemade pizza was extra delicious. But I am done eating for the night, and I know I will be at my first goal by next Friday.
Tomorrow is my 25th class reunion, and I will splurge a bit on a nice drink (manhattan is my favorite), but will go easy on the food. After all I am not there to go whole hog on food, but to catch up with old friends.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Things I Hate to Admit

I always brushed off diet advice involving stopping eating at a certain time in the evening. Why? Well, because I like to eat late at night of course! And the truth is I still don't really believe that it matters when you eat your food. If you eat 1500 calories during the day, and 200 of that is at 9, or whenever, it shouldn't matter.

Yet ... I do think weight comes off more easily when I don't eat after dinner (we eat late-ish, simply because of our work schedules). I really think it has more to do with accepting that there are limits, rather than the 100 calories I would like to eat after the kids are in bed.

I do want "something special" when the kids have gone to bed (again late-ish, that is just our habits), so I have been having a cup of hot tea. No calories, the heat is satisfying, and tea is not something I drink during the day.

Do you like to eat late at night?

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Fear of being Foodless

Yesterday I had a new low on the scale since starting this journey (207.5 for 8 lbs lost in 25 days). It was great to see! The day before I had posted about my indulgence in a dunkin donuts bagel. Now, the bagel itself is not what bothered me. I am not avoiding carbs, or even high calorie treats (although it will be long time until I have another blizzard!). What bothered me is why I bought and ate it. I was driving to a training session at a facility where I had been in the past. I remembered that there wasn't much to offer in terms of lunch in the near vicinity. Somewhere in my head was a nagging fear ... what if I don't eat enough at breakfast, cannot get a decent lunch, and STARVE! Now this fear is beyond ridiculous because 1) there are vending machines, 2) I have a car and can drive minutes away to get something for lunch, and 3) surely I would survive being lunchless, if absolutely necessary, for one day.
A couple of years ago, I bought the book "The Beck Diet Solution". Although it was not my solution, it recommended an interesting experiment where you do not eat between 8 am and 5 pm. While this is not a good daily strategy, it is effective in teaching you that no, you will not die if you miss a meal.
How much overeating have I done because of irrational fear of being hungry in the future? Do you find yourself doing this?

Monday, July 19, 2010

Indulgent moment

Today, I had to travel across the city for offsite training, and had to get on the road much earlier than usual (after a horrible night's sleep) For some reason, that compelled me to get a dunkin donuts bagel with cream cheese (I had already eaten cereal and fruit at home) on the way. Half the day's calories before 8 am? Ouch! I recovered ok, but I won't be doing that again anytime soon. It tasted good, but not 500 calories worth of good. Ahh those changes in routine.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Well, this week the scale was not quite so kind, a few ups and downs, and yesterday I was at 210, a lb up from last week. However, I am learning alot about managing my food intake, and even a 5 lb (net) loss has me feeling better and more energetic. Today was a great day ... went to a friend's house to swim in the pool. My oldest son (who has some neurological problems and developmental delays) shocked us all by swimming in the deep end .. we had no idea he could, and I even tried to convince him he couldn't. LOL.
Last night we went to Don Pablo's my most favoritest Mex restaurant. I ate 6 tortilla chips, and relished them. I used to eat maybe 30? 1000 calories right there. I do enjoy food, and I am going to prove I can enjoy it in moderation and still lose weight.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Weigh in

Woo hoo! Friday was weigh in day, and I have lost 6 lbs in 2 weeks. Tonight I went to the track and for the first time in a long while my legs ached not at all. Great weekend!

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Well I have not been doing so well with blogging, but I have been doing well with tracking my calories. We switched to a new scale which weighs both my husband and me at .5 higher. Taking that into account I have lost 3.5 lbs in about 2 weeks. We always wish for more, but it is a start.

I have been really paying attention to whether I feel hungry. It is surprising how much less you can eat, and still feel fairly satisfied. I have reached my calorie limit for the day, and I am a *little* hungry but certainly not ravenous. And if I get ravenous, I will just go to bed!