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Pittsburgh, PA, United States
Six years ago I decided (age) 42 would be my magic number. I stepped on the scale for the first time in a LONG time. It was a BIG number, it was a SCARY number, but mostly I knew I had to own that number. I lost 40 pounds, leaving the obese category behind. In 2014 I committed myself to working out HARD and a low sugar diet, losing more weight and gaining nice definition. Then life happened, and I lost momentum, gaining some weight back. My goals now are different, and include completing my first ever marathon at age 48. GULP! You can read about the next part of my journey here.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Sweet Little Lies

What little lies, or big fat lies, do you tell yourself?

All these years I have been telling myself how much I LOVE food, as if I love the taste of it more than other people do.

I have found in the past few months that I really don't love it as much as I thought I did. I guess I loved shoving it in my mouth when I couldn't think of what else to do. Many times recently I have been hungry and cannot think of one thing I really want to eat. I don't mean one healthy thing, or one low calorie thing. I mean one anything. It's just food.

And as of today, I am 1 lb away from 15 lbs lost.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

September Goals

In the past 9 weeks I have lost 13 pounds. I am currently at 202, and am setting my goal to be down to 195 in 4 weeks, by September 25th. That is a little aggressive, but I know I can do it.
It is also time to get serious about exercise goals. I have exercised quite a bit over the summer, but not with the kind of regularity I am shooting for.
So for September I am targeting : 2 days at the gym with weights ; 3 sessions at the track (or treadmill if I absolutely cannot get out during daylight) ; 1 bike ride on the weekend ; at least 1 karate class.

More blogs!

Thanks to Shane for pointing me to new (to me ) bloggers:
Dr. F and Michele ....

Following bloggers and posting to my own blog is playing a big part in sticking to my initiative. It is good to know that although technology has played a big part in super sizing America, it can also be one tool towards a healthier life.

Friday, August 27, 2010

Vacation Damage? Not!

I was very excited to step on the scale and discover I am only .5 lbs heavier than last Friday. I am also looking forward to returning to my fitnesspal, and tomorrow getting back to regular exercise. Now I am off to work!

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Vacation Damage

Last Friday, I weighed in and was at a new low ... 202.5. This past week we spent at the beach in Delaware. I did not count calories but did not gorge either. I bypassed many of the staples of previous vacations ... sweet rolls & muffins at the breakfast buffets, daily ice cream cones, etc. I did indulge in a nightly drink at dinner, mostly wine, but one margarita at a place where the margaritas are awesome! Split french fries with my kids at a couple of meals. Tomorrow I will see what I gained, if anything. I am not worried about it though, I have no doubt I will be right back on track.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Frankly, I don't give a damn

About chocolate. There is another thing I could give up, maybe forever. Now..... I don't mean chocolate cake. No way, I'm not giving that up. But chocolate candy? Yes.

What is this conspiracy that makes women think they must worship chocolate to be real women?

When I was *trying* to lose weight, I would allow myself one square of dark chocolate at night. But I don't really like it! That was dumb.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Because this isn't a Charles Dickens novel ....

Every day it is easy to find something to give up.

Today's find : my kids' crusts of bread. I haven't given up Tuscan bread (yet); however, if I am going to eat it I will eat "real" slices only that can be easily measured.

Eating the crusts of others, while delicious (the crust is the best part), is totally unnecessary.

Sunday, August 15, 2010


Is how I feel. Not related to weight, just that kind of day. Hey we're not living in a perfect world!
Sunday afternoon used to be my prime time for a nice glass of wine while I cooked dinner. Instead I guzzled coffee. It will not keep me awake, because even nuclear war cannot do that.
Said dinner sucked. The chicken was undercooked, and had a weird texture. Hopefully it will not cause explosive diarrhea. Although the bruschetta with homegrown lemon lime basil was delicious.
Oh well, tomorrow is another day, even Scarlett O Hara knew that.
AND, today was my lowest weight since starting - 204.5.
AND I got out on my new bike this morning.

Dreaded Pictures

I figure I will want progress pictures for this weight loss journey so here is my first.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

What Got You Here

Won't get you there.

I am going to have to radically change my habits to get where I want to go. Blame middle age, being female, whatever. Just kinda sorta watching what I eat is not going to cut it.

So here is my new commitment. I am giving up alcohol at home. We eat out about once a week, and I will have one drink out, but no wine or beer or manhattans at home. All of which I love passionately. If you are not a person who drinks, this may sound like no big deal to you, but for me it is. I was never a heavy drinker, but I have drunk a glass of wine (sometimes 2) every night for many years, so I am a regular drinker, I suppose.
I am not giving it up just because of the calories, but also because it has an adverse affect on my plans for running.

It is just habit. It is just a drink.

Friday, August 13, 2010

Committment is a Process

In the past 2 weeks I have not lost weight, in fact I have gained 2 pounds. I did not want to post this information ... as if hiding it (from myself) would make it not true.

But committment is a process, we have to re commit ourselves every day. I hereby recommit myself to losing weight. Sure it is great that I lost 10 lbs, but when you have a lot to lose the first 10 are super easy. How often have I lost 10 lbs, just to regain it PLUS 10 more. Well, let's see. Often enough to get from 135 to 215.

Now is not the time to give up. Tracking and controlling what I eat is actually getting easier. I believe I can do this.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

What is Hard?

Today is my older son's 11th birthday. He is a great kid! He also has neuro impairment & developmental delay. 11 years ago today he got "stuck", he was deprived of oxygen and had seizures after birth. The day he was born the doctor told us he might not live through the night.
Well he did live, and in many ways has done so well. But his language impairments make every day hard for him : in school, in sports, just in hanging with other kids.
I am not writing this to rehash history, or to spark pity for me or for him. Everyone has their problems.

But, when I look at how he has to struggle every day, I ask ... how hard is it just to eat less? If he has to work so hard every day, just to get by, is it really that hard for me to cut calories, work out, drink more water?

Not that losing weight is easy. If it was easy everyone would do it ... which is what I say about losing weight and about why our systems at work are not perfect. But all things are relative.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

It's Just Food

Do you have a mantra? I played around with a few ... like "Food is Fuel", and they did not work for me. Probably because I am not using food as fuel yet. Now I am trying out "It's Just Food". This comes in handy when there is junk lying around work (french crullers, I love you), or at a restaurant where I feel like overeating just to shove food in my mouth.
Eventually I want food to be fuel. Allan makes some good points about suspect "diet plans". I could say "I lost 10 lbs eating brownies and drinking wine!" And it would be true. But. 1) I have been building up running at the track. To really make progress I will have to treat food as fuel. And wine, while delicious, is not fuel. 2) My current diet got me from 215 to 205. It will not get me to my goal.
At first (a few weeks ago) 1500 calories seemed unthinkably low to me. But today I could have gotten by on 1200 (I didn't ... I had a snack). Really, it is just food.

Monday, August 9, 2010

1440, I hate you

Today I decided to dig in my heels and really strive for my new calorie limit of
1440. Didn't quite make it ... about 50 calories over.
So I look over what I ate today, and ask ... is there anything I would not eat, given a do over.
Maybe the crusts from my kids Tuscan Bread? Nah, they were delicious!

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

The Family that Brushes Together ...

I have 2 boys, ages 11 and 7. Like many kids that age, they think that brushing their teeth consists of putting a brush in their mouthes and chewing on it. This does not lead to good dental health. So now I brush my teeth when they brush theirs at their bedtime. They mimic me and brush longer. And since I don't eat after they go to bed, I might as well brush then. Right? Right!

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

No Good Deed ....

Today myfitnesspal said "Congratulations! (for 10 lb loss) Do you want to recalculate your goals?"

I said "Sure!"
So it deducted 60 calories from my daily allotment! LOL, for real.

It was not that it was totally unexpected, it just struck me as funny. That is my prize :)

Monday, August 2, 2010

Reward Time!

Having reached my first goal, I am rewarding myself with a new bike. I have a bike, but it is way too small (built for a much shorter person than I) and I cannot ride it more than 20 minutes. I have a long way to go, but you gotta start somewhere. Also had a great night at the track, and felt better running than I have since last summer. Gloating in a happy moment!

First Goal Met!

I will post more later, but I am very excited to report I have met my first goal of 10 lbs lost! At 205.5 this morning.