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Pittsburgh, PA, United States
Six years ago I decided (age) 42 would be my magic number. I stepped on the scale for the first time in a LONG time. It was a BIG number, it was a SCARY number, but mostly I knew I had to own that number. I lost 40 pounds, leaving the obese category behind. In 2014 I committed myself to working out HARD and a low sugar diet, losing more weight and gaining nice definition. Then life happened, and I lost momentum, gaining some weight back. My goals now are different, and include completing my first ever marathon at age 48. GULP! You can read about the next part of my journey here.

Friday, November 11, 2011

The other side

Haven't been posting much, but wanted to check in to say I have busted through to the other side of 170. I am now at 168, my lowest low in 12+ years.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Weekly weigh in

No loss (or gain) this week, still at 169.5. I am a little disappointed, but I believe I can make a dent next week by (1) increasing protein intake and (2) being a bit more cautious on the weekend. The past week included several restaurant lunches and a baby shower. I navigated them fairly well, but am looking forward to a more routine week ahead.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

My Space

Now that shorter days are here (as well as the school year and homework, etc) I am not getting to the track very frequently. I do go to the gym to use the treadmill, and work out in the basement.
Our new setup in the basement has made it so conducive to working out. I used to try to use dvd's on a small portable DVD player that I put on the washing machine. Ick. Now we have TV, with DVD player, VCR and stereo in a very convenient location with lots of open space, where I have easy access to my mat, step, and weights and balance ball.
It is so cool I am looking forward to working out with Jillian Michaels.
Weird, huh?

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Good, and not so much

The Good : Friday I weighed in at 169.5, which is a 2 lb loss for the week, and means I am now back to my lowest weight since starting my diet in June 2010.

The Not So Good : I didn't do as well as last week in limiting my intake on Friday and Saturday. It definitely could have been worse, but also could have been better.

More Good : after a week of feeling like I was fighting off so illness (EVERYONE is sick around here), I feel much better, and am ready to work out hard this week. I am fairly certain I can show another loss this week. Although it might not be 2 lbs, any loss at all will mean another all time low, and those are always motivating.

Have a good week, all!

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

So far so good

I have had a very good week, foodwise, and am hoping for a win on the scale this Friday. I started off the week feeling under the weather, and after working out hard last week, I gave it a rest. Tonight I did a light workout with a Bob Harper DVD.
When I hit a new low, it is fall clothes shopping time!

Sunday, October 9, 2011

The Other Side

Sunday weight = Friday weight. That is a success for me, and sets me up for a loss this week. By all means I have room for improvement. I went over my weekly calorie goal by a few hundred calories, and made more than my allotted share of less than stellar choices. It was a very strong exercise week however, and I am damn sore.
If I count exercise I am under my calorie goal, but I don't. That is a slippery slope, and I view exercise as a fitness tool, not a weight loss tool.
I am 6 lbs away from my level one goal and I feel mentally poised to get there.

Friday, October 7, 2011

Friday weigh in

171.5 today, 2.5 lbs down from last week, and lowest weight in several months. No way am I failing to stick to my plan this weekend.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Falling off a Log

In some ways I feel like I am starting over with weight loss. It is like a second phase. The first 40 lbs were relatively easy. I am not saying that this is true for everyone, but for me, losing weight at 215 lbs was simple, requiring minor changes, with a lot of room for error.
Now it is quite different. I don't have the weekly motivational boosts of easy losses on the scale, and little room for mistake.
It is not a complaint, just an observation.

Monday, October 3, 2011


The next few months provide a lot of anxiety for those of us on a weight loss quest. Candy, feasts, cookies, parties. When I was obese I ate plenty of candy in the month of October, but truthfully I don't love candy and it is easy to give up. Last year I ate maybe one piece of Halloween candy. Cookies, pretty much the same. I don't worry too much about the one day big dinner events, they are easy to work off.
My big downfall is booze and salty snacks. Parties are dangerous territory for me. This past weekend I chose to skip a party. I wasn't dying to go, and just didn't feel like dealing with temptation. No, I won' t become a hermit, but unless I am really looking forward to the conversation I will probably just pass.

Friday, September 30, 2011

Friday weigh in

I weighed in at 174, which is the best I could hope for starting off the week at an awful 178.5. I am pleased with my week and am planning for another good one. My calories were good, and protein was high. A couple days I went over my sugar limit but still stayed under carbs. The specific limits really help me.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Visualize Whirled Peas

One of my biggest weaknesses is wine. I had gradually slipped back into a daily glass. While it is not a ton of calories, daily booze is not a great weight loss tool. Then I realized that as much as I enjoy drinking the wine, envisioning having the glass beforehand is as big a draw for me. So now in the morning I put a giant glass of water with lemon slices in the fridge. On the way home from work, I visualize that water, and it is pretty appealing.

Monday, September 26, 2011


It is time to get back to basics and follow diet guidelines.
Calories :1200-1300
Protein : at least 80 g
Sugar: no more than 40 g
Carbs: no more than 135 g

Today went well. I finished up the day with jumping jacks-crunches-arm workout.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Who's that girl?

Tonight we went out to dinner and I overate. Nothing like in the past, but still enough to feel uncomfortable. And I hate that feeling. But quite honestly I used to like the feeling of being overly full. Now it not only means a negative impact to weight loss, but also my exercise plan. It isn't guilt that I feel, just awareness that when I overeat I am acting like a person I no longer am.

Saturday, September 24, 2011


I am finally acknowledging I need to post on the glacier slow computer in the playroom, if I want to make frequent updates.
Weight-wise, I have nothing great to report. My goal of 165 by Halloween seems quite out of reach now. Today I woke up to 174. My eating was fairly good this week, but no loss, instead a slight gain. I see no alternative but to keep plugging away at it.
On the plus side, I did get back to strength training, using the "100" workout I gleaned from another blog .... 100 jumping jacks, 90 crunches, 80 squats, etc. I am going to mix it up with arm/glute/chest moves and so forth. Today however, I am nearly incapacitated from the sheer number of squats I did.
I did go to the track last night as well, and pushed myself despite the soaking rain and fatigued muscles.
So at this point, rather than focusing on the scale, I am going to focus on 1) watching calorie intake, 2) clean eating and 3) a reasonably intense exercise routine. I will still weigh myself daily, it is just a habit I prefer, and I am not giving up my goal of 165, but if I stick to 1, 2 and 3, the results will follow eventually.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

weigh in

My official weigh in this week is 172.5, one pound down from last week. I am not going to f*** up my losing streak this time, i am still headed for 165 by Halloween. Typing on the Nook blows, so my typically brief posts will be even shorter.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

checking in

Just seeing if I can post from my Nook, having issues on laptop.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Weigh in

I was shooting for 173, and I am at 173.5, which makes for half pound loss.
I believe I had a good week, with both eating and exercising, but certainly there is room for improvement.
So onward!

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Best and Worst

On Saturday I had one of my worst 5K times ever. I blamed it on a combination of breaking in new shoes, and losing headway over vacation.
On Monday I had my best 5K ever! Under 34 minutes for the first time. It is definitely key for me to eat as little as possible before going to the track.
Tonight I had an OK run, but more importantly, I am getting back in the groove of exercise.

Monday, August 29, 2011


Was relieved to weigh in today the same as Friday. My goal is to indulge a little on weekends, but keep it to Saturday lunch, to minimize weight gain. This Saturday, I had a half portion of chicken pasta (creamy sauce) and a pint of scottish ale at a local brew pub. The rest of the weekend I stuck to plan.

Goal for this Friday is 173, which is very achievable. Wonderful weather in western PA tonight, so I will be getting out to the track for sure.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Weigh in

I weighed in yesterday, just did not get a chance to post.
Weigh in is 174, I was hoping for a little less, but it is still good. Post-vaca weight on Sunday was 178, so that is 4 lbs.

At 1 lb per week average, I can make 165 by October 31st. It won't be easy, because I have less room for slip ups at this weight than I did at the start.

I had a good eating week, but slacked on exercise, due to a combination of weird ailments and travelling. I will rectify that today.

If you are in hurricane path, take care!

Wednesday, August 24, 2011


It is time to get back to setting goals.
I started off the week at 178, and am now 174. If only all weight was as easy to lose as those extra vacation pounds! I think I should be about 173 by Friday. Friday as weigh in day worked well for me in the past, so I plan to stick to that. My short term goal is 165 by Halloween.

Monday, August 22, 2011


I weighed in at 175.5 today. Yes, it is a bit dismal that that is 6 lbs up from my lowest weight in the spring, but I can only start from now. I can't start from the past. Had 2 good eating days in a row, and got to the track tonight to break in my new Asics.

My biggest weakness calorie-wise is booze. I am back to no wine on weekdays. I had really started getting lax with a glass of wine almost every night. When vacation ended it was a good point to eliminate that habit. Although wine can be healthy in moderation, I don't think it will ever be a good idea for me to indulge in it daily, even if I reach my ultimate goal weight.

Sunday, August 21, 2011


Just returned from a really fun vacation to Williamsburg/Delaware beaches. I gained about a pound ... I am guessing the bigger meals were offset by no snacks and LOTS of walking and swimming.

Over the past few months, I have lost a little ground, and have updated myfitness pal to reflect it. From a low of 169, I am now up to 178. I know getting back to the routine of the school year will help me get back on track. Yes, I know technically I should be able to lose weight no matter what, but I allowed the hectic schedule of the summer, combined with lots of houseguests, to have an impact.
I love summer, but I love fall as well, and I am looking forward to more progress on the weight loss front.

In the interest of full disclosure, I am posting a beach pic of myself. Not the worst ever, but I am planning for better in 2012.

Saturday, July 23, 2011


I haven't been blogging lately, not sure why, just haven't been feelin' it.
Weight wise I have not made much progress, hanging out at approx 3 lbs above my lowest weight. I have been making substantial progress with running though, and really enjoying it.
I have been reading my favorite blogs -- often when I try to comment I have problems with authenticating, but I am keeping up with you all.

Friday, June 24, 2011


I dropped under 11 minutes for my first mile, when I ran 5K the other night. New record for me! On the not-so-good news front, my weight is up. I am updating myfitnesspal to reflect it. There is no mystery to it ... I have stopped rigorously tracking calories. Either I want to track my food and lose more weight, or stick with where I am at. It is up to me.

I did have a doctor appt yesterday, with a new doctor, and I really like him. He is very thorough and personable. My blood pressure was excellent -- 110 over 70, and I had my first EKG, which was also normal. Still waiting on blood test results. Overall, he declared me healthy. I am very bad about going to the doctor, so this was my first trip in years. I don't plan to cut corners on that in the future. I am officially "over the hill", although I foresee many good years ahead.

Thursday, June 9, 2011


Just got back from an awesome run, I reached a new personal best for the 5K, at 36 minutes flat.

I want to get back to commenting on blogs, but I can't seem to authenticate via Google and post a comment. What is up with that?


We made our first excursion to the pool yesterday .. perfect day for it, as it was hot as hell.
Now no one would mistake me for a super model, but what a difference from last year.
Last year, our first trip to the pool coincided with 1 day into my weight loss journey. My extra large swimsuit barely fit (the bottoms are boy shorts with snaps), I was busting out of it. This year that bathing suit would literally fall off me, so I went out a bought a similar style in size Large, which was plenty roomy (but Medium would be too small).
I am not where I want to be, but heading in the right direction ....

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Green Uniform

I have been MIA lately, busy with finishing up the school year. Holding steady, weight wise.
Here is a pic of me in my uniform with green trim.

Thursday, May 26, 2011


I am experiencing a setback. I am up 3 lbs from my low weight, but it is not really a matter of numbers, it is a matter of mindset. I have lost focus, and it shows in my lack of progress. To reflect this I updated my myfitnesspal weight, not because 172 is so different from 169, but to move forward I have to be honest with myself.

My first big goal was to reach 165. I know I can achieve this this summer if I don't cut corners on my eating plan. I have been working out, and have achieved some personal bests with running, so I am satisfied there.

Monday, May 9, 2011

The Motivational Closet

I spent the weekend getting rid of clothes the kids had outgrown/stained beyond repair. I also put away my winter clothes, and bagged up those that are now too big for me, including all 16's and some 14's. I am now a comfortable size 12 but I also have 14's that are not too baggy so I am holding on to those.
No matter how monotonous weight loss is (and it is!), this clean up job was a great reminder that I NEVER want to go back to that size.

Saturday, May 7, 2011


I spent some time cleaning old running shoes out of the closet. A couple of years ago, I was working on building up my running. I got to the point where I could run a full mile (may not sound like much, but for me it was), and then my calves and ankles started to hurt horribly. It was so bad that I could barely walk, let alone run. Thinking it was a shoe problem, I bought one pair after another.

Guess what? It wasn't the shoes. Being over 200 pounds, however, may have been a root cause. I also made the mistake of running every day, which I think was not a good idea. Rest days are essential, especially if you are overweight, and non-fit. Now, no matter what shoes I walk/run in, my legs never hurt. I still am not running full laps, I alternate running a little over 1/2 lap with walking the rest, but I am fairly confident I will get to running full laps soon. Strength training has also had a positive impact keeping my legs in working order.

For $1.99, I purchased Nike+ app for my iPhone. I love this app! Now I can track my mileage and pace easily without distraction, and the Powersong feature is sweet.

Monday, May 2, 2011


10 days ago I reached a new low and broke into the 160's. Today, I am 6 lbs up!
I gained a bit of weight over the Easter holiday, which was not unexpected. Last week however, I fell into a funk. I honestly didn't have the impression that I was eating like crazy, but I hardly exercised, was suffering from allergies, and was generally in a melancholy mood (for a few reasons I won't go into here).

This past weekend I got back on track with exercise and yesterday began tracking all my food again on myfitness pal.

Truthfully, I am not feeling as negative about this as you might expect. It is a reminder to me that I can never go back to my old ways, no matter how "normal" they seemed, and probably always will seem. The extra pounds should fall off fairly easily with proper diet and exercise, and then I am still reaching for a goal of 165 by May 31.

Thursday, April 21, 2011


Weigh in today tells me I am below 170, which is fantastic.
But I have no reason to gloat mercilessly. My committment is to go beyond mediocre, and in terms of exercise I have been 100% mediocre lately. My fat loss is not where it should be, in relationship to my weight loss.
While my eating habits are not perfect, I do not foresee changing them much. My protein is way up, and my sugar is way down, but I am not going to be pushing them even further.
I need to stop screwing around with working out with weights, and just do it. The thought of weights is always incredibly boring to me, unlike going to the track, which I look forward to. I need to just do it anyway. We have plenty of space in the basement, lots of weights, a mat, a balance ball, a punching bag, and a stereo, so I have no excuse not to.
I will report back next Friday on how I do this coming week.

Another goal: cut back on coffee after noon. I sleep, but I have these crazy ass dreams that make me feel exhausted. I think less caffeine will help.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011


Yes, I saw a number beginning with 16 on the scale just now. I admit, I ate less than usual today because my stomach is bothering me. Still, I declare it valid!
169.5 -- I have not been under 170 since before I got pregnant with my first son, in 1998.
My goal is to reach 159 ("normal") by June 30. That would be 56 pounds lost in a year. I am also participating in Colleen's #SBRChallenge on Twitter, where my 16 week goal is to lose 15 lbs (taking me to 155). These are very reasonable goals, dependent on losing weight at a rate of 1 lb per week. However, meeting them will require a consistent approach. I am feeling up for it!

Monday, April 18, 2011


I finally got to Kohl's to buy new jeans/pants. And not a moment too soon. Losing weight and having your clothes get looser is cool. Having pants so baggy you constantly look like pooped your pants? Not so much.

I am a solid size 12, which is great. Every pair of 12's I tried on fit. Some looked good and some looked crappy but they all fit. Last summer I was busting out of my size 16, and just could not face the thought of buying 18. For the first time in a long time I am looking forward to buying some new clothes for the summer.
Who knows? Maybe next fall I will be buying 10's ....

Wednesday, April 13, 2011


Yes, today is the day I saw it on the scale. 170.0. Nice, but not as thrilling as at the beginning ... I guess because it has sunk in that I really mean it this time, and this is for life. So 45 pounds lost and next week I should see "16_" on the scale. It does amaze me, since I have not seen that since 1998. I am 11 pounds away from a "normal" weight, a place I have not been in 20 () years.

If you are struggling to lose weight, I can assure you I have no more motivation nor willpower than you. Just a plan, and I'm stickin' to it. My plan is more rigorous than some, but less rigorous than many. I drink alcohol on weekends, and regularly exceed my ideal calorie limit by a "little", but sugar is pretty much in my past and I don't have "cheat days". You can find a plan that works for you!

Weather in western PA is beyond shitty and I would like to immerse myself in wine and food, but I will not. They claim the sun will shine tomorrow, but I am not holding my breath.

Sunday, April 10, 2011


I received my green belt at karate yesterday. When I get my uniform with green trim, I will post a picture.

Friday, April 8, 2011


My plan is to get back on track with Friday weigh in's.
Today I weighed 172.5, which is a bit higher than my low a few weeks ago (171), but 3 lbs lower than my Sunday weigh in.

I have eaten well and exercised this week. I don't think there was tremendous room for improvement, although I am never perfect!

I am going to leave my myfitnesspal loss at 44 lbs because I think I can get back there by next Friday. Ideally I would like to be at 45 lbs lost by then.

Enjoy the weekend my friends!

Thursday, April 7, 2011


I have never been a runner. Even as a kid, I could barely run. I have been walking / running on the treadmill, waiting for there to be a little more light in the evenings so I can run at the track. I had been counting minutes : walking vs jogging, but that gets confusing and tedious.

So now my goal is to be able to do 3.1 miles in 35 - 40 minutes, whichever way I can get there. Currently I walk at 4 mph, and then bump it up just a tad to jog every few minutes. Even at that I am pretty damn sweaty at the end.

I am looking forward to the day that the kid who could never run participates in a 5K.

Monday, April 4, 2011


After 3 weeks of upheaval, I am back to "normal" life, and routine, and really it could not come a minute too soon.

I am up a few pounds, but I will wait to see how things settle out this week before I consider it a setback. My guess is after a few on track days I will back where I was a few weeks ago, which was .5 lbs off from 45 lbs lost.

I know that part of weight loss is to have the flexibility to deal with unexpected circumstances, but the truth is I am a very introspective person, and when I have more "human activity" than I am accustomed to I have a difficult time pushing myself into the weight loss zone. I am confident though that I can achieve maintenance in a variety of circumstances, and that in itself is valuable.

My goals for the week are 1) log food daily to myfitnesspal, 2) workout 6 days and 3) blog daily even though I may have little to say.

To finish here is a picture of my son on his 8th birthday. So adorable I could eat him up!

Wednesday, March 30, 2011


Trying hard to get back into a good routine. Had trainer session today, and tracked my food on myfitnesspal. Tracking will be essential to getting out of the overweight category ... I can feel complacency setting in!

Monday, March 28, 2011


My habits have been fairly crappy the past couple weeks, and while circumstances have been unusual (funerals, houseguests, birthdays, house painting, sickness), it is not an excuse ... just a fact.
On the plus side, I am now at 15 minutes of jogging -- intervals of 90 seconds jogging, 90 seconds walking over the course of 30 minutes. I believe I can reach 45 lbs lost this week if I buckle down. If not, I will get there sooner or later. I know there is no going back.

Sunday, March 20, 2011


I haven't posted much lately, we have had 2 deaths in my husband's family. His brother's wife died a week and a half ago, at age 47, after a long illness. My mother in law died Thursday, also after a long illness. My mother in law was a very difficult person to deal with, yet of course my husband will miss her.

On the plus side, we have had a houseful of relatives, and my kids have handled it well. I am especially proud of my older son, who has a developmental delay and has a hard time with changes in routine.

Time for exercise has been minimal. I have not been overeating, but have not been careful with what I eat .... grabbing things like a slice of veggie pizza for breakfast. Like all things it will pass.

No matter how long we live, life is damn short, my friends.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011


I have not felt a lot of certainty during my weight loss journey. It would be nice to say that when I started I had a "this time is different" feeling. But I didn't. Every week I would think "This is the week I stop losing weight. I am meant to be fat."

I have been reluctant to set goals recently. I am uncertain I will meet them. However, this is the number I have in my head. 111. The repeating "1" pleases my left brain, and it is also the number of days between 3/11/2011 (the day I was thinking about goals) and 6/30/2011 (my one year anniversary since I started to lose weight). In those 111 days, I want to move out of the overweight category, which would mean losing about 14 lbs (going from 173 lbs to 159 lbs). At less than 1 lb per week, that is very achievable. I already am down to 171.5 (my weight this morning). Still I am not certain I will meet the goal.

This may sound like a negative post, but actually it is quite the opposite. I am convinced you don't need certainty to lose weight. What do you need? A plan and a willingness to take it day by day.

There is one thing I am certain of ... there is no going back for me. I may never lose another ounce, but I will never see 200 again.

Sunday, March 13, 2011


Yesterday I made it through my karate test. It was actually an awesome experience, and there was no need for me to be such a crybaby about it. I broke my board on my first try (elbow strike) and performed adequately otherwise. When I am notified that I "passed" I can buy a new uniform with green trim, which I desperately need since my current uniform is way too big and I look like Ebenezer Scrooge in his nightgown in it.
After the test I treated myself to some lunch at Texas Roadhouse with the kids. Nothing too crazy (petit filet with sweet potato, no butter), but I did have one roll, and a 10 oz draft beer.
So today when I got on the scale and saw 171.5 I could not believe it. I actually thought "Damn! 177.5, that roll put 4 lbs on me (lol)." Got on the scale and yes it is true ... 44 ugly lbs gone! I feel great!

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Award followup

Thanks again to 135by2012 for the Versatile Blogger Award.

The rules are to share 7 things about myself, and to pass on the award.

1. I have a PhD in linguistics, and did field work in Mexico in '94 and '95 with native speakers of Meso American languages. Wow that seems like a lifetime ago!
2. I am an only child. Not a spoiled brat, really :) but I did get used to a lot of "me" time and space.
3. I was a DJ on a college radio station.
4. I lived in Louisiana in the 90's.
5. I make awesome homemade pizza and have been perfecting it for 20 years.
6. I took piano lessons for many years and accompanied the school chorus and school plays.
7. I am in "teenage love" with Rob Pattinson. If I admit that, I can admit anything.

I will pass the award on to 1. Goodbye Fat Girl, who is making progress and has snappy posts. 2. Julie, who not only is kicking some serious weight loss butt, but also seems to have a very kind heart, which beats skinny any day of the week, and 3. Vee, who has many struggles, but continues to post and strive for better.

Happy weekend everybody!

Thursday, March 10, 2011


I am testing for my green belt in Tang Soo Do this Saturday, and I have to admit, I am nervous.
Green belt is essentially 5th level. Testing for yellow or orange did not throw me. At that point I had the mentality ... "hey, I am in my 40's, a newcomer to karate, I will do what I can", but at this level expectations are higher -- mostly my own expectations of myself! So I have been practicing forms and combinations a lot at home, and went to the pretest. But honestly, at this point, I just want it to be over! Performing karate in front of a testing board of scary men in black belts is more intimidating than I would have thought!

Monday, March 7, 2011


Saw this floating around, and thought I would copy.

Age: 43
Bed size: Queen
Chore you hate: Dusting
Dogs: One Doberman-Lab mix.
Essential start of your day: COFFEE!
Fave color: Purple
Gold or silver: Silver
Height: 5'7''
Instruments I play: Piano since childhood, learning guitar now.
Job title: Technical Lead
Live: in PA
Mom’s name: Rose Marie
Nicknames: Catheter (lol)
Overnight hospital stays: 2 - for the birth of my chidlren
Pet peeve: when people bite down on their forks when they eat
Quote from a movie: "it doesn't take much to see that the problems of three little people don't amount to a hill of beans in this crazy world"
Right or left handed: Right.
Siblings: none
Time you wake up: 6 am
Underwear: Hanes
Veg you dislike: brussel sprouts
What makes you run late: everything
X-rays you have had done: chest
Yummy food you make: homemade pizza
Zoo Animal, favorite: orangutans

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Sprucing Up

I have definitely been cruising at the same weight for about a month now ... hovering between 40 and 42 lbs lost. At 175, of course I still want to lose more weight. However, at this time I am questioning if I am willing to change my diet further. I am not 100% sure of the answer. I feel good. I look pretty good, although no one will mistake me for a supermodel. I have been very committed to exercise in the past month, so my fitness levels are improving.
Although I will continue to weigh myself daily, since gaining weight is absolutely not acceptable, I am not going to obsess over losing for a little while, at least.

In other news, we bought new living room furniture lately. Our couch looked like it belonged in a frat house, it was so beat. Now that our kids are getting a bit older, I am ready to put some time and effort into making the house look nice. Although we are definitely not hoarders, we have our clutter like many people. I am putting my house on a diet.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011


I am definitely feeling some stagnation in my weight loss. I still plan to log my food intake, but now that spring is coming, I am going to focus on exercise and fitness. Not because I think that exercise is key for losing weight, but for the overall motivation and energy that it imparts.

I am up to 10 (non consecutive) minute of jogging during a 30 minute session on the treadmill. I know that sounds pretty pathetic, but believe me when I say I have always been the opposite of a runner. Even as a kid, I could barely run. At some point this year, I plan to run a 5K.

Oh, I am so ready for spring!

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Red Carpet

I haven't blogged much lately, I just don't have anything going on on the weight loss front. I am looking forward to the Oscars though. Although I rarely get to the theatre (too hard to get babysitters, so I only see kids' movies), I LOVE the movies. When our kids are older, I will definitely make up for lost time!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011


We all have been "defined". Here are some ways I was defined as a kid : smart, quiet, introverted, non athletic.

Well I would like to think I am smart, or at least smart enough! I graduated from an Ivy League school, and have a PhD, for what it is worth. I have a good job, and manage our money well. I have worked damn hard to get the right help for our older son, who has a learning disability.

People at work would laugh at the notion that I am quiet, since I talk so much there, but I am lucky to have found a workplace that brings out the verbose side of me. Truly I like to be quiet, and reflective.

We have ginormous parties at our house, but in general I am introverted. I like my own company and prefer solitary activities.

Non athletic. At 43, this is the label I am rejecting. At first I exercised to lose weight. Now I want to lose more weight to improve my performance in karate, yoga and running.

What "definitions" do YOU want to leave behind?

Thursday, February 17, 2011


I don't know that I have ever seen the scale drop two days in a row, but this week I did.
Another pound down to 173.5. I will take it!
Especially since work is making me crazy.
Friday has to come, right?

Wednesday, February 16, 2011


But surely, I am getting closer to "normal" weight.
Today I weighed in at 174.5 lbs. It feels good to bust under 175, and get to 41 lbs lost.

I really need to build up my sleep though ...

this week I have a) lost my gym card, b) forgotten my sparring gear at karate, c) forgotten my purse last night at kids' piano lessons. I didn't even realize it until they called me and I had to drive back, with kids, at 9 pm, to get it. and d) forgotten my purse in my car this morning at work. Thank God for keyless entry, which I insist upon in a vehicle so I can never get locked out.

I am telling myself I am just tired and stressed (which I am) and not entering early senility.

Monday, February 14, 2011


Last night I tried Hot Yoga for the first time. It really wasn't that hot ... I guess in the 80's. The class was long though, between 75 and 90 minutes. I enjoyed it and I will go back.

My biggest problem? Downward Dog kicked off my sinuses and I had snot running out of my nose all night. Luckily I had an extra t-shirt!

Saturday, February 12, 2011


I found out yesterday that I am on the testing list for karate. I will be testing for my green belt. So there is pressure, of the best kind, to prepare for the test. Just 10-15 minutes a day will make a big difference.

No weight loss this week ... 4 days in a row of off plan eating does not make for weight loss. No, I didn't gorge, but at this point I don't have a lot of room for error. Losing weight at 175 lbs is going to be harder than losing it at 215 lbs. I feel fairly confident about the long term though, and I know I am not going back.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Wednesday, February 9, 2011


A favorite dinner in our house is ravioli. I have not partaken of it for months, but we serve it once per week because the kids might go nuts without it.
Last night, I was just too tired and stressed to make something different for myself, so I ate the ravioli my husband prepared.

And really it fits into my plan -- 9 pieces of Rosetto cheese ravioli are under 300 calories, low in sugar, and not bad in terms of protein (10 g). The sauce is homemade and reasonable in calories/fat.

Then I realized that I had not been avoiding the ravioli because of their nutritional value, but because they used to send me into a feeding frenzy. I would gorge on ravioli, with Italian bread and butter (a true weakness for me). We didn't have bread last night, because frankly none of us need it, including the kids. And I consider my frenzy days in the past. I ate my 9 ravioli with steamed broccoli. I had no compulsion to reach back into the bowl for more. I actually was a little too full when I was done.

I am not going to eat ravioli every week, but I think I can put my fear of stuffed pasta behind me.

And considering their nutrition, I will not insist on a smiley face from my trainer when I show him my food diary, but I will not accept sad face either. (Yes, I feel like I am about 6 years old).

Monday, February 7, 2011


My family has been practicing Tang Soo Do martial arts for a few years now. My husband is a green belt-orange stripe (level 6), I am orange with a stripe (level 4) and the kids are orange (level 3).

We travel a fair distance to do karate at a studio run by my former co-worker. The reason we do that, even though there are karate studios all around us, is because it is worth it to travel to work out with someone who has a passion for what he does.
He just opened a new dojang, which is beautiful aesthetically, and a pleasure to practice in. It is fantastic to watch a friend realize his dream and passion, and bring that level of excellence to his students/customers.

Every day I remind myself that if I want excellent results, I have to practice excellent behaviors. Mediocre will not yield excellent.

And as I am on the topic of "excellence", I will leave with a quote from a masterpiece of cinema "Be excellent to each other".


1. The Steelers lost.
2. It is Monday.
3. I am up for my Biggest Loser weigh in at work, probably due to excess salt intake.

Oh well, I can only control one of those things, so back to the diet grind.
No more challenges for me. I joined this one because a friend asked me to, but honestly I hate comparing myself to other people. I also don't like losing the perspective of 40 lbs overall lost because of a 10 week challenge.

Live and learn.

Sunday, February 6, 2011


Superbowl Sunday is here, and I am living in a Black & Gold world.

Here is a picture of our Superbowl food tradition, a muffaletta, which is the iconic sandwich of our adopted state of the 90's, Louisiana.

I make the bread, homemade, and we buy the best meats at a local Italian deli. This sandwich is so loaded with fat and calories and sodium, it isn't even funny.
This year I will have one bite, and whatever my husband doesn't eat, he will take to work with him.

Some snacks I will have : Shrimp; homemade hummus; baba ghanouj; pita; a couple of pieces of cheese; veggie straws; veggies. No booze! I had my limit this weekend. I will indulge in a Diet Coke.

Other items on my daily menu include : chai tea protein smoothie; 1 egg with whole grain bagel; cottage cheese. A shitload of water.

Enjoy your Sunday, whether it includes football or not!

Saturday, February 5, 2011


A few days ago I posted about increasing my water intake as a result of purchasing a bottle from water.org. I was pleasantly surprised to receive a post on my blog from someone who works at water.org, thanking me!

I am pretty sure the water bottle is not magic, but all of a sudden I am noticing how thirsty I am for water. I am guessing I have always have been and just ignored it. Certainly a change for the better, and very much welcome.

I will need all the water I can get today, because I have eaten far more sodium than I should have over the past 48 hours. I have a plan for some healthy snacks for tomorrow night, as I cheer the Steelers on. By Monday weigh in I hope to be all "flushed out".

Friday, February 4, 2011


It is Friday, and my weight is up a little, probably from the bbq grilled chicken wrap I had at lunch yesterday.
But all I really care about today is that it IS Friday.
I am not sure if the winter weather is part of the deal, but I have been sooo tired, at the end of the week I am ready to collapse.
I will get to the gym after work today, and get a little running in.
After my kick ass plyometric leg workout on Wednesday, walking on the treadmill was all I could muster.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Six String

Not much new on the weight loss front.
I had my guitar lesson tonight. I have been taking lessons for about 3 months and while I am definitely improving, I am not going to give Eric Clapton a run for his money.
Still, it is important to learn new things to keep my middle aged brain active.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011


Yesterday I spent a lot of time bragging, online and off, about reaching my first big goal.
So what was in store for today?
Sticking to my diet so I can reach the next goal!
Such is life in weight loss land.
I have a couple of lunches out scheduled this week, so it will be a challenge to watch my sodium intake.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011


Here is a poster that will be displayed at the gym where I workout.

Although I have the same pictures on this blog, seeing them side by side like that is a bit of a shock. Wow, I was fat! I am so grateful I turned this around before things went from bad to worse.


February is fantabulous, when on the first day you wake up to see you met your first big scale goal!

Yes, I am weighing in at 175.5, 40 lbs lost.

The funny thing, is after waiting so long I almost didn't recognize it!

It makes a crappy February day look alot better.

Monday, January 31, 2011


Is how I describe compulsive eating.
Yes, I have let compulsive eating slip back into my life.
No, I am not downing brownies or ice cream, or potato chips. I am not gorging on huge amounts of food of any kind.
But a few nuts here, a few veggie straws there, because I am bored or frustrated add up. They added up to 215 lbs, and I do believe that they would have added up to over 300 lbs, if I had let them.
There is room in my life for treats, but there is NO room for compulsive eating.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Perspective, water.org, and What I Don't See

Although I am not where I hoped I would be at this date, I have lost 3 lbs in January, which for my most hated month of the year, is not bad.

Also, here is what I don't see on the scale anymore, and plan to never see again.

Numbers beginning with the digits


In the category of "Perspective" :
I have made significant positive changes to my diet (including lowering calories, increasing protein and decreasing sugar). 2 things I have left to conquer are increasing water intake and eating more veggies. I have tried every trick in the book to drink more water and simply failed through lack of will.

I have finally made progress in this area.
This week I received my water bottle from water.org.

Who am I to be too lazy to drink water, when there are people in the world who cannot access clean drinking water for their children? I am now drinking more water. I am not tracking it yet, and may never track the ounces, but I carry this bottle with me all day.

Enjoy your weekend, all!

Friday, January 28, 2011


I came within .5 lbs of 40 lbs lost this week. How close!

Now, to some I may seem fixated on a number, but there is a fine line between letting go of number fixation, and letting go of goals.

No, 176 is not much different than 175.5. I am well aware of that. But I cannot get to 160 until I get to 175.5. I would actually like to be less than 160, but that is more or less the weight where I believe I will be healthy, based on past experience, as well as standard weight charts.

I don't expect to lose weight as fast as I did when I was 215, but I think losing 1 lb per week at this point is not unreasonable. If I get to the 150's and still want to lose 10 pounds, I would imagine .5 lbs per week would be within reason. I have really stepped up my exercise. I think it is time to tweak my diet again. I know what to do ... it is simply a decision that must be made.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011


I think I am going to take a break from myfitnesspal.

I still need to write down what I eat for my trainer, in a notebook, I am very familiar with calorie contents by now, and my meals are very routine, so I am definitely not giving up on tracking food intake.

I really give myfitnesspal a lot of credit as a very powerful tool in my weight loss, because of its 24-7 availability via my phone. But after 7 months I think it may not be necessary anymore, and it is somewhat tedious.

Maybe I will miss it and go back to it.

Or maybe I will find I do still need it.

Time will tell.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Girl Talk

I have read blogs where women have said that during 'that time of the month' they are hungrier, bloated, etc. I have to say I have never noticed that. But ... it seems as if PMS makes me extremely physically tired. I blew off the gym yesterday, but went today to walk/run on the treadmill. Then I took the kids to piano lessons, and now I feel as if I could crash.

Not much point to this post I guess, just looking for a License to Whine!

Monday, January 24, 2011

Dieters Plan, the Scale Laughs

Yesterday I was 176.5, so I thought it was in the realm of possibility to reach 175.5 today, which would be 40 lbs lost.

So I ate low cal, drank water, exercised.

Today ... ta da! I am 178.5

Now I understand the scale fluctuates from day to day, and it probably results from some bodily function, or lack thereof. But for some reason I find it funny!

But, the Steelers won, after a nail biter of a game, so you can't have everything.

I bet I will hit that 40 lb mark this week.

Sunday, January 23, 2011


I rarely rely on motivation for weight loss, as it is a slippery thing. Instead I rely on following a plan, whether it thrills me or bores me (mostly boring). However, every once in a while something will happen that gives me a jolt of motivation, and a rather arbitrary moment where I truly believe, "Yes, I am going to reach my goals."

176.5 on the scale yesterday was such a moment. It motivated me to skip the buffet. It will motivate me to exercise this week although going to the gym in this weather frankly sucks. And then it will fade, but I will still stick to a plan, so I can get to my next magic moment.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

1 Pound to go; Biggest Loser

To my first big goal of 40 lbs lost.

When I stood on the scale today and saw 176.5 I almost did a little dance.
We were going to go today to a huge Asian buffet. My husband and sons love it, but I am fairly "eh" on it. Saturday is our restaurant day, and we take turns picking. I always pick a place with margaritas because booze is my indulgence of choice. My younger son picks Hokkaido.

Well, I really don't want to go to a buffet, where I know I will eat too much, EVEN though none of the food really excites me. So I am bowing out. Now how cool would it be to reach 40 lbs lost this Monday? Pretty damn cool.

I joined a Biggest Loser contest at work. For 12 weeks we weigh on Mondays. Whoever loses the biggest % of their own weight wins the money. It is not a ton of money, but sure, I would like to win! The first week everyone lost weight, because let's face it, dropping a couple pounds after the holidays is like falling off a log. The second week, I was the only one to lose. While I wish everyone luck, naturally I wish myself the most.

My toe is finally feeling better, and my progress on the treadmill is going well. I only run a total of a few minutes per session, but I have a plan for increasing my time, and my goal is to be running 30 minutes straight by the end of April. Then I can start working on joining my first 5K.

So, this is a positive post. An antidote to this unholy cold weather ....

Friday, January 21, 2011

Super Cool Friday - weather and weight

Well, it took a special bathroom moment, but I am at a new low. 177.5, for 38 lbs lost.

I had a really great exercise week. I exercised every day except Thursday (my official 'rest' day), if I get to the gym tonight, which I will. I worked out with Tony, and my arms are killing me, and I also worked out my legs on my own.

Foodwise, it was not the best week, but by far not the worst. I need to pare back my calories again, just by a bit. We tried a new clean eat crockpot recipe, and it was luscious.

Have a great weekend!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

In for a Pound

I have officially lost 1 pound since the holidays. It is not much, but it makes me feel surprisingly good to see the scale go down, even if just by a little bit. And now that I am re prioritizing exercise, I am expecting better results quickly.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Restaurant Survival

Well I escaped the restaurant scene without succumbing to the tortelloni. My friend and I shared lemon rosemary chicken. It was good, and I was able to look up the calories online.

I don't expect weight loss to be constant, especially now when I am overweight, not obese. However, I am concerned with mojo loss. If I go 4 weeks in Dec/Jan, and maintain, don't lose, I can live with that. But I want to make sure 4 weeks doesn't turn into 14 weeks, and then 40 weeks. For the first time in awhile on this journey I am feeling a little nervous. I know what the antidote is, I just have to do it.

Monday, January 17, 2011

Waffles, Not Just for Breakfast Anymore

So, my post New Years weight loss and fitness efforts have been an exercise in waffling. Whatever the reason ... bad habits left over from the holidays, the way January makes me want to curl up in a ball until March, sheer boredom with the weight loss thing after losing almost 40 lbs .... it is time to buckle down.

Yesterday, I had a good exercise day for the first time in awhile. I walked outside, and even with the cold worked up a good sweat. Later in the grocery store, sleepiness overtook me ... love that feeling after being out in the cold!

Today my challenge is dinner out with a friend. I will have enough calories left for a relatively healthy dinner. My mantra all day will be "Do NOT order the tortelloni".

When I have reached my weight loss goal range, there will be opportunities to eat tortelloni. I can wait.

Friday, January 14, 2011

My own 100 days

I have been very neglectful of posting, after the holidays and the end of the Hot 100..
So for the next 100 days I will give updates on my new goals.

1. Follow my eating plan, which allows for a little over 10,000 calories per week.

2. Exercise with weights at least twice per week, and cardio at least 4 times per week.

3. Reach 158 by April 24, at which point I will formally no longer be overweight.

4. Blog daily.

I have no loss this week, I am hanging at 178.5, for a total of 37 pounds lost.
January makes me want to go hide under a blanket, but I need To Harden the F Up, and get over it.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Ready to Lose

Wow, I need a rest! Work is really challenging this time of year, with lots of urgent projects.

The good news: On my birthday (Dec 23) I reached a new low of 179. I did indulge over the holidays, but I am back to 179 today, and I would love to see a small drop by Friday. I have a session with my trainer tonight, and I have been eating well this week.

The bad news: my broken toe still hurts, although it is better. It makes pushing myself on the treadmill difficult. I want to make sure it heals properly because I have significant running goals this year.