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Pittsburgh, PA, United States
Six years ago I decided (age) 42 would be my magic number. I stepped on the scale for the first time in a LONG time. It was a BIG number, it was a SCARY number, but mostly I knew I had to own that number. I lost 40 pounds, leaving the obese category behind. In 2014 I committed myself to working out HARD and a low sugar diet, losing more weight and gaining nice definition. Then life happened, and I lost momentum, gaining some weight back. My goals now are different, and include completing my first ever marathon at age 48. GULP! You can read about the next part of my journey here.

Monday, January 31, 2011


Is how I describe compulsive eating.
Yes, I have let compulsive eating slip back into my life.
No, I am not downing brownies or ice cream, or potato chips. I am not gorging on huge amounts of food of any kind.
But a few nuts here, a few veggie straws there, because I am bored or frustrated add up. They added up to 215 lbs, and I do believe that they would have added up to over 300 lbs, if I had let them.
There is room in my life for treats, but there is NO room for compulsive eating.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Perspective, water.org, and What I Don't See

Although I am not where I hoped I would be at this date, I have lost 3 lbs in January, which for my most hated month of the year, is not bad.

Also, here is what I don't see on the scale anymore, and plan to never see again.

Numbers beginning with the digits


In the category of "Perspective" :
I have made significant positive changes to my diet (including lowering calories, increasing protein and decreasing sugar). 2 things I have left to conquer are increasing water intake and eating more veggies. I have tried every trick in the book to drink more water and simply failed through lack of will.

I have finally made progress in this area.
This week I received my water bottle from water.org.

Who am I to be too lazy to drink water, when there are people in the world who cannot access clean drinking water for their children? I am now drinking more water. I am not tracking it yet, and may never track the ounces, but I carry this bottle with me all day.

Enjoy your weekend, all!

Friday, January 28, 2011


I came within .5 lbs of 40 lbs lost this week. How close!

Now, to some I may seem fixated on a number, but there is a fine line between letting go of number fixation, and letting go of goals.

No, 176 is not much different than 175.5. I am well aware of that. But I cannot get to 160 until I get to 175.5. I would actually like to be less than 160, but that is more or less the weight where I believe I will be healthy, based on past experience, as well as standard weight charts.

I don't expect to lose weight as fast as I did when I was 215, but I think losing 1 lb per week at this point is not unreasonable. If I get to the 150's and still want to lose 10 pounds, I would imagine .5 lbs per week would be within reason. I have really stepped up my exercise. I think it is time to tweak my diet again. I know what to do ... it is simply a decision that must be made.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011


I think I am going to take a break from myfitnesspal.

I still need to write down what I eat for my trainer, in a notebook, I am very familiar with calorie contents by now, and my meals are very routine, so I am definitely not giving up on tracking food intake.

I really give myfitnesspal a lot of credit as a very powerful tool in my weight loss, because of its 24-7 availability via my phone. But after 7 months I think it may not be necessary anymore, and it is somewhat tedious.

Maybe I will miss it and go back to it.

Or maybe I will find I do still need it.

Time will tell.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Girl Talk

I have read blogs where women have said that during 'that time of the month' they are hungrier, bloated, etc. I have to say I have never noticed that. But ... it seems as if PMS makes me extremely physically tired. I blew off the gym yesterday, but went today to walk/run on the treadmill. Then I took the kids to piano lessons, and now I feel as if I could crash.

Not much point to this post I guess, just looking for a License to Whine!

Monday, January 24, 2011

Dieters Plan, the Scale Laughs

Yesterday I was 176.5, so I thought it was in the realm of possibility to reach 175.5 today, which would be 40 lbs lost.

So I ate low cal, drank water, exercised.

Today ... ta da! I am 178.5

Now I understand the scale fluctuates from day to day, and it probably results from some bodily function, or lack thereof. But for some reason I find it funny!

But, the Steelers won, after a nail biter of a game, so you can't have everything.

I bet I will hit that 40 lb mark this week.

Sunday, January 23, 2011


I rarely rely on motivation for weight loss, as it is a slippery thing. Instead I rely on following a plan, whether it thrills me or bores me (mostly boring). However, every once in a while something will happen that gives me a jolt of motivation, and a rather arbitrary moment where I truly believe, "Yes, I am going to reach my goals."

176.5 on the scale yesterday was such a moment. It motivated me to skip the buffet. It will motivate me to exercise this week although going to the gym in this weather frankly sucks. And then it will fade, but I will still stick to a plan, so I can get to my next magic moment.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

1 Pound to go; Biggest Loser

To my first big goal of 40 lbs lost.

When I stood on the scale today and saw 176.5 I almost did a little dance.
We were going to go today to a huge Asian buffet. My husband and sons love it, but I am fairly "eh" on it. Saturday is our restaurant day, and we take turns picking. I always pick a place with margaritas because booze is my indulgence of choice. My younger son picks Hokkaido.

Well, I really don't want to go to a buffet, where I know I will eat too much, EVEN though none of the food really excites me. So I am bowing out. Now how cool would it be to reach 40 lbs lost this Monday? Pretty damn cool.

I joined a Biggest Loser contest at work. For 12 weeks we weigh on Mondays. Whoever loses the biggest % of their own weight wins the money. It is not a ton of money, but sure, I would like to win! The first week everyone lost weight, because let's face it, dropping a couple pounds after the holidays is like falling off a log. The second week, I was the only one to lose. While I wish everyone luck, naturally I wish myself the most.

My toe is finally feeling better, and my progress on the treadmill is going well. I only run a total of a few minutes per session, but I have a plan for increasing my time, and my goal is to be running 30 minutes straight by the end of April. Then I can start working on joining my first 5K.

So, this is a positive post. An antidote to this unholy cold weather ....

Friday, January 21, 2011

Super Cool Friday - weather and weight

Well, it took a special bathroom moment, but I am at a new low. 177.5, for 38 lbs lost.

I had a really great exercise week. I exercised every day except Thursday (my official 'rest' day), if I get to the gym tonight, which I will. I worked out with Tony, and my arms are killing me, and I also worked out my legs on my own.

Foodwise, it was not the best week, but by far not the worst. I need to pare back my calories again, just by a bit. We tried a new clean eat crockpot recipe, and it was luscious.

Have a great weekend!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

In for a Pound

I have officially lost 1 pound since the holidays. It is not much, but it makes me feel surprisingly good to see the scale go down, even if just by a little bit. And now that I am re prioritizing exercise, I am expecting better results quickly.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Restaurant Survival

Well I escaped the restaurant scene without succumbing to the tortelloni. My friend and I shared lemon rosemary chicken. It was good, and I was able to look up the calories online.

I don't expect weight loss to be constant, especially now when I am overweight, not obese. However, I am concerned with mojo loss. If I go 4 weeks in Dec/Jan, and maintain, don't lose, I can live with that. But I want to make sure 4 weeks doesn't turn into 14 weeks, and then 40 weeks. For the first time in awhile on this journey I am feeling a little nervous. I know what the antidote is, I just have to do it.

Monday, January 17, 2011

Waffles, Not Just for Breakfast Anymore

So, my post New Years weight loss and fitness efforts have been an exercise in waffling. Whatever the reason ... bad habits left over from the holidays, the way January makes me want to curl up in a ball until March, sheer boredom with the weight loss thing after losing almost 40 lbs .... it is time to buckle down.

Yesterday, I had a good exercise day for the first time in awhile. I walked outside, and even with the cold worked up a good sweat. Later in the grocery store, sleepiness overtook me ... love that feeling after being out in the cold!

Today my challenge is dinner out with a friend. I will have enough calories left for a relatively healthy dinner. My mantra all day will be "Do NOT order the tortelloni".

When I have reached my weight loss goal range, there will be opportunities to eat tortelloni. I can wait.

Friday, January 14, 2011

My own 100 days

I have been very neglectful of posting, after the holidays and the end of the Hot 100..
So for the next 100 days I will give updates on my new goals.

1. Follow my eating plan, which allows for a little over 10,000 calories per week.

2. Exercise with weights at least twice per week, and cardio at least 4 times per week.

3. Reach 158 by April 24, at which point I will formally no longer be overweight.

4. Blog daily.

I have no loss this week, I am hanging at 178.5, for a total of 37 pounds lost.
January makes me want to go hide under a blanket, but I need To Harden the F Up, and get over it.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Ready to Lose

Wow, I need a rest! Work is really challenging this time of year, with lots of urgent projects.

The good news: On my birthday (Dec 23) I reached a new low of 179. I did indulge over the holidays, but I am back to 179 today, and I would love to see a small drop by Friday. I have a session with my trainer tonight, and I have been eating well this week.

The bad news: my broken toe still hurts, although it is better. It makes pushing myself on the treadmill difficult. I want to make sure it heals properly because I have significant running goals this year.