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Pittsburgh, PA, United States
Six years ago I decided (age) 42 would be my magic number. I stepped on the scale for the first time in a LONG time. It was a BIG number, it was a SCARY number, but mostly I knew I had to own that number. I lost 40 pounds, leaving the obese category behind. In 2014 I committed myself to working out HARD and a low sugar diet, losing more weight and gaining nice definition. Then life happened, and I lost momentum, gaining some weight back. My goals now are different, and include completing my first ever marathon at age 48. GULP! You can read about the next part of my journey here.

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Baby Steps

I changed the title of my blog, and plan to refresh my profile description, but that will have to wait, because I plan to be wordy!

Tuesday, February 28, 2012


I have been thinking about changing my blog up a bit, to focus not only on weight loss but some other aspects of my life as well ... all centering around living a healthier, more engaged life.
Right now I am merely dwelling on a new title for the blog, and may come back tonight to tweak it.
In the meantime, I am still hanging in there at 172.5, which I suppose is my "other" magic number. I did get back to the gym last night, as I am completely over my sinus problems, and had a decent run/walk on the treadmill. I think I was pushing myself a bit too hard with exercise (considering my schedule/age/etc), not in terms of intensity -- I consider intensity a good thing, but in terms of number of days and number of workouts per day. Following up Jillian Michaels Shred immediately with Brazil Butt was pushing it.
My goal for March will be to run (treadmill or track) 2x per week, Jillian Michaels Shred 2x per week, and a bit of the Brazil Butt workout on the weekend. I need 2 rest days, and I am going to give them to myself. As the weather improves some hiking, skating or swimming with the kids will be an awesome rest day activity.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Comfortably Numb

I have been thinking alot about my next steps (if any) in weight loss. One topic I tend to avoid on my blog, and quite frankly in real life, is my emotions. I am just not terribly comfortable dwelling on my emotions (insert Oprah-esque comment here about "eating your emotions").
And actually I do not think that dwelling insufferably on every emotion you have is a good idea -- for weight loss, or anything else.
But ....
While I was able to lose 44 lbs mostly by the same ol' same ol' of eat less, move more (no rocket science here), I do believe I need to do a bit more mental / psychological work to go further.
This may seem counterintuitive, but I am taking a short hiatus from exercise. In a way exercise has become another way to numb myself. Last night instead of going to the gym, I relaxed at home and ... allowed myself to think (while painting my toenails bronze and reading a book about Zen). It actually made me anxious. I have become terribly uncomfortable with "downtime". And that is a bad thing.
I have no concerns that I will not get back to exercise. I have come to love it too much. But it can't just be another way to "not think". Certainly a healthier choice than not thinking via a bag of Doritos, but not the way to get to my ultimate goal.

Friday, February 17, 2012

Big Baby

Well I think I can say I lost 1 lb this week. Not earth shattering, but I will take it. Weighing in at 171.5 today.
This week was easy to eat well (because I didn't feel well) and difficult to work out (for the same reason).
But at some point, you have to tell yourself "Stop being such a big baby and put down the cookie."

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Forced To Rest

I have been fighting a cold and sore throat for the past few days. I cannot take off work because I don't want to waste time off this early in the year .. I need days for school holidays with my kids. I have been resting quite a bit though, taking NyQuil and getting to bed very early, like 8:00. This also means no workouts, but I am hoping to get back to it tomorrow. I feel much better today, but still tired by the end of the workday, and I don't want to relapse.

I think tomorrow will be a good weigh in day, I have been eating very reasonably.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Stay the Course

Woke up today to 171.5. This is very much a pattern for me on Saturdays, to be 1 lb lighter, even after my weekly (homemade) pizza and white wine Friday. Now the key will be to drink lots of water and monitor calories and salt over the weekend, and I should be off to a good start for a better weigh in next Friday.
My goal recently was to workout 6 out of 7 days, but I really think my body needs 2 rest days .. not unusual in your 40's. So I am going to bump up intensity when I workout but keep it to 5 days per week.

Friday, February 10, 2012

You guessed it

172.5 again! Yikes. A little disappointing after a good exercise and food week. I REALLY pushed myself with both. This weekend I will plan to minimize salt and see if I can get to a better head start on Monday.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Not Bad

I had an excellent food day yesterday. It makes me realize how I have been kidding myself that my "not bad" days are good enough. They are good enough for general health, and maintenance, but not for weight loss.
If I keep my calories below 1500, exercise pretty rigorously, keep protein up and sugar down, I will get to 165, which is my level I goal.

I am definitely back in the groove of working out. I moved up to Jillian Michaels Shred, Level II, and it is a bitch! Alot of plank work, which is very demanding. I am mixing it up with the treadmill, and the Brazil Butt workouts. Today is a rest day, and wow do I need it.

Monday, February 6, 2012

Hang Loose

I used to love to wear oversized t shirts, to get that feeling of "hiding" my fat. No more! Even around the house, I now feel terrible in t shirts that are too big. I feel sloppy. I went to Target and bought some new sleepwear -- definitely comfy and casual, but the right size, NOT a size that will drown me.

I had a great exercise weekend, but even though I did not go hog wild with food, I ate a lot of salt, and the scale reflects that. I am looking forward to a good week ahead.

Friday, February 3, 2012

Deja Vu All Over Again

Yes, scale still says 172.5.
I had a really great exercise week. I worked out Sunday, Monday, twice on Wednesday, and once on Thursday. On Wednesday I had a good time on the treadmill. At the track I had been able to get to a 33 minute 5K, but I find the treadmill harder, so coming in a bit under 37 minutes was good.

Food intake was pretty good, although as usual could be better. I kept a lid on excessive eating over the weekend but still showed a considerable jump on the scale Monday morning.
I am going to attempt to double up on exercise over the weekend. Not because I think you can exercise away bad eating, but because it pumps me up for better choices.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Love and Hate

I took a day off today because we had an appointment midday to set up will/guardianship with the lawyer. Other than that meeting I did not do much ... other than nap, paint my toenails, and do Jillian Michaels Shred.
It is surprising to me how much I have come to love exercise. I truly do look forward to it. I love getting outside to the track in spring & summer, and enjoying the fresh air. I love going to the gym for the treadmill, where I can get some great music "me" time with my iPhone and end up a hot, sweaty mess. I really LOVE my new Brazil Butt DVD ... so much fun. I don't know that I "love" the Shred videos but I enjoy the challenge of improving my performance.

Don't get me wrong ... there are many things about weight loss I do not love.
1. Drinking more water. I already posted about this. It is a dumb mental block, but there it is.
2. Drinking less wine. I loves me my wine! It is a truly hateful thing to me to not have a glass of wine nightly. I will not pretend it is no big deal to me, because it actually is.

Surprisingly though, most other healthy habits have not been terribly distressing. I used to think I "had" to have a snack in the evening. Now it never crosses my mind to even consider it.

Losing weight at this point is not easy. I am in my mid 40's. I am overweight, but not by much. Consistently lowering my calories to create weight loss is a challenge. I still hold out hope that I will get to "normal" weight, but overall my life is so much healthier. I am not perfect, but my weight and health are not holding me back.