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Pittsburgh, PA, United States
Six years ago I decided (age) 42 would be my magic number. I stepped on the scale for the first time in a LONG time. It was a BIG number, it was a SCARY number, but mostly I knew I had to own that number. I lost 40 pounds, leaving the obese category behind. In 2014 I committed myself to working out HARD and a low sugar diet, losing more weight and gaining nice definition. Then life happened, and I lost momentum, gaining some weight back. My goals now are different, and include completing my first ever marathon at age 48. GULP! You can read about the next part of my journey here.

Friday, March 30, 2012


I did not lose weight this week. I simply did not engage in weight loss behaviors. Holding steady at 170.0.
On the plus side : 1) I held steady even with some birthday party indulgences 2) I am back to regular exercise, where I had slacked off terribly. Still holding out for 50 lbs lost by 6-25. 3) My mood is improving. I have been feeling verklempt lately, for reasons I may post about tomorrow.

So damn happy it's Friday though ....

Thursday, March 29, 2012


Historically I have had low iron. Last week I gave blood, and I was just at the cutoff where you are allowed to give. The experience was literally draining! I have a made renewed effort to take vitamins daily -- C, B complex, Iron and E.
My last set of bloodwork from the doctor showed no abnormalities, except my B12 was low. I am so damn lazy about taking vitamins. I usually do it for a few days then quit.
What is your vitamin routine?

Wednesday, March 28, 2012


Here are the rules I have been trying to adhere to the past few weeks.

1. Eat what I really like.
2. Don't eat what I don't want.
3. If I want something that is non food related, have that and don't substitute food.
4. If I want something that is non food related, and for some reason I cannot have it, substitute something other that food. Example : if I am bored at work, but cannot leave, I can get up to get water, I can make tea, I can just walk around, etc

Yes, #1 sounds dangerous, but it really isn't. There aren't that many things I *really* like, and many of the things I do are either healthy or else I can be happy with a little bit. I do have goals related to calories and content of food, but will not rehash them here, as I have talked about them many times, and at some point you have to learn to trust yourself. There are a few things I must avoid because they send me into a feeding frenzy (low cal crackers and hummus at work yesterday), but luckily for me, not many.

I did well with 1-4 the past couple of weeks, but not so hot the past couple of days. To have these types of guidelines work well, you really do have to focus and recommit every single day. What better day than today?

Do you have rules?

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Setting a weekly goal

This week I would like to see a number below 170 on the scale. Today I was 172 (birthday weekend for son turning 9 included a fancy dinner out -- my kids have expensive tastes). Seeing 169 or 169.5 by end of week is within the realm of possibility.

Friday, March 23, 2012

Friday weigh in

As of 6 pm today, I met my goal for the week, which was to see 170 on the scale. I actually saw 169 yesterday, but I won't count it because I had donated blood, and that brought me down.
I got to the track 3 times this week, and really enjoyed being out in this unseasonal beautiful weather. My favorite time to go the track is evening, so I can walk home at twilight. I was not able to work in any Brazil Butt workouts this past week, but will get to it next week.
I think setting weekly goals is the way to go. In June I will reach the 2 year mark on my weight loss journey, and I would be pretty disappointed if I didn't meet my 1st level goal by then -- 50 pounds lost, which is only 4.5 lbs away.

Monday, March 19, 2012

Monday weigh in

Weighed in today at 172.5, which is pretty good after many days of restaurant and party food. My goal is to be at 170 on Friday, which is absolutely achievable.

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Week from Hell

The past 10 days have been relatively dreadful. My older son, who has a developmental disability, has been going through a phase where his compulsive behaviors have increased considerably ... to the point where it is becoming an issue in school. He has been at a school for kids with language based learning disabilities for about 2 years, with almost no complaints. The thought of going back to the cycle of complaints from school is causing me a huge amount of anxiety. With that, focus at work and sleeping well, amongst other things, suffers.

Yes, the grass is not greener, and everyone has their problems, but sometimes, wouldn't you like to trade your own monotonous problems for someone else's?

On the plus side, the scale has not treated me too badly, considering I ate lunch out 3 times last week, dinner out once, and we had a party last night, where I indulged in a few manhattans. I will post my weight tomorrow.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Sleeping At Last

Research shows that sleeping well is important for weight loss, as well as a host of other health and wellness issues. For quite some time, I have been waking up stiff and sore, and attributed it to getting old. But hey! I am only 44. Do I have a potential 40 more years ahead, feeling this way? Then it dawned on me, that it could simply be my crappy old mattress. So, we have plans to buy a new one, but in the meantime we flipped the mattress, and presto! I have been sleeping better already. Well, actually this past week I slept poorly a few nights, but it was unrelated to the mattress. The past two nights I slept well, and it is an attitude-improver.

Lowest number on the scale this week was 171. I would rather lose .5 lbs and keep it off, then lose a few pounds and bounce back up (plus more), so I am more than ok with it.

Sleeping at Last is also the name of a band that sings the song Turning Page, from the latest Twilight movie. Wow, what beautiful piano. I am buying the sheet music this weekend.

Friday, March 2, 2012

Down for the Count

Here is is, weigh in Friday again. The scale says 171.5, which at least is not the ever present 172.5. I am giving myfitnesspal a rest for a while. The easiest part of weight loss for me is to count. Some people are repelled by counting calories, but I can count all day. I can think of numbers 24/7, keeping charts, graphs, and all sorts of objects that give me a false sense of security. Picture my brain like this : a left brain the size of a boulder, and a right brain the size of a puny pebble. It is a brain that loves numbers.

I am not dismissing the importance of counting for weight loss. We all hear "Calories in, calories out"; "Eat less, move more", until it may make us puke. Yea, duh. And if I want to weigh less, I have to have some idea of my calorie intake. I won't say "it's not just about a number on the scale", because, um, it sort of is, if you are obese or overweight. But at this point I can rattle off the calorie content of every known food, and almost-food, on the planet. I really don't need myfitnesspal for that. I can keep a mental running tally of what I eat over the course of the day.

It is time to bring my poor, shriveled right brain into the action: visualization, meditation,letting go of number obsession.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

It's All About Me

I changed up my page and profile a bit ... I am looking forward to more blogging!