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Pittsburgh, PA, United States
Six years ago I decided (age) 42 would be my magic number. I stepped on the scale for the first time in a LONG time. It was a BIG number, it was a SCARY number, but mostly I knew I had to own that number. I lost 40 pounds, leaving the obese category behind. In 2014 I committed myself to working out HARD and a low sugar diet, losing more weight and gaining nice definition. Then life happened, and I lost momentum, gaining some weight back. My goals now are different, and include completing my first ever marathon at age 48. GULP! You can read about the next part of my journey here.

Monday, January 28, 2013

Start out Strong

Got a good start to the week by working out with trainer. Did better with push ups this week, and with skull crushers, which made me happy since I am focusing on building upper body strength. Also had a decent food day, and I can feel the difference already. I am working to dispense with the "just a little bit" mentality -- just a little bit of this or that won't matter. All those little bits add up, in a big and bad way.

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Week in Review : Anxious

Instead of losing weight this week, I showed a gain of 2 lbs at my Friday weigh in. I will admit, I am surprised. No, my diet was not perfect, but sooo much better than December diet, and yet -- a gain. I feel a tinge of panic to see that number. I know what I need to do, and that is, buckle down and commit to clean eating. So I won't whine, but just make this week better. On the plus side, my fitness routine has been pretty good, and overall I feel fairly strong.

Monday, January 21, 2013


I updated myfitnesspal stats to reflect my true current weight. Surprisingly, it was not that anxiety-provoking to up my weight by 10 pounds. When I first lost 40 lbs, I lost it the "right" way -- clean eating and working out. When I was down to 50 lbs lost, it was because of eating very little -- but very little junk. Yes, you can lose weight on wine and sugar. No, you should not! It was not sustainable, and so the weight returned. I am ready again to do it the right way.

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Week in Review

All in all, not a bad week. I will only get 5x exercise in, instead of 6. Bad planning on my part, as I forgot I was going out to dinner on Friday, and took a rest day on Monday. I was going to double up on exercise today, but the truth is my body is tired, and I don't want to push it too much. I tracked my food on myfitnesspal, and while my calories were ok, my sugar was too high. I have a better plan for the coming week, and am excited about it. Aiming for 80 g protein per day, and no more than 45 g sugar. I lost 3 lbs this past week, but hard to be revved up about that when I am still 11 above my lowest weight. Still, no choice but to move forward from where I am.

Monday, January 14, 2013


I am not a big believer in looking for motivation, but instead creating a plan, and sticking to it. However, sometimes motivation comes unexpectedly. I ordered 2 Prana items through Zappos. Prana has nice quality clothing in styles I like -- a little pricey, but worth it. I ordered size Large, which fits me in most brands. I don't need extra large anymore, and can occasionally fit into a Medium. Well, the sweater dress fits, but it too tight to look good. Now this pissed me off (at myself of course) ... over the summer, 10 pounds ago, I would have looked awesome in this dress!. The hoodie is also a tad tight. Just gives me motivation to stick to my plan! I am not returning them. A strange bit of motivation ... for some reason Jillian Michaels in Extreme Shed and Shred looks fantastic to me. Now I have been looking at her for years, and yeah of course she is fit, but for some reason in this DVD all I could think was "I want to look like that!" No, I probably won't get to that level, but still, it encourages me to workout to tone up. Don't require motivation, but take it when it comes .....

Sunday, January 13, 2013


I am pleased that I met my workout goals this week. 6x Monday : 1st workout with trainer Wednesday : 5K on treadmill Thursday : Jillian Michaels Shred Friday: Brazil Butt Saturday : Jillian Michaels Extreme Shed and Shred Sunday : 5 miles at track Today I kept my calories at about 1400 (right on), and sugar at 41 g, which is ok. Fat was a little high, due to 3 oz steak at dinner, and protein a little lower than I would like. But overall, I feel a sense of control. To lose weight I have to stick to 1400-1500 calories per day. It doesn't seem like much. At 175 pounds it seems like it would take more to maintain my weight. But I am 45 and alas, age matters. I can eat fine at 1400 calories. It is all habit. But of course it does not allow for much wiggle room. The Extreme Shed and Shred is soooo hard, but a lot of fun. Not just the basic weight moves, but some kick boxing, yoga and capoeira thrown in as well.

Friday, January 11, 2013


I am not sure why I was going to wait until next week to start tracking my food? Just felt like being a big baby I guess. Instead I started tracking it yesterday. Yesterday was not a bad day. Today I did not eat too many calories, but way too much sugar. On the plus side, I will meet my goal of exercising 6x this week. It was a challenge because working out with my trainer on Monday really did incapacitate me. That is *not* being a baby -- the first workout has dreadful aftermath. But I did 5K on Wednesday night, weight workout yesterday, and Brazil Butt today. Will cap it off with workouts on Saturday and Sunday. One way or another I will get back on track.

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Mind Games and Crutches

When I was working out with my trainer the other evening we were talking about how great I did with following a food plan about 2 years ago when I worked with him previously. The difference? There was no doubt in my mind that I could and would do it. Whatever he asked me to do I would do (within reason, I never did hit the protein intake he recommended, simply too high for me). Now, I have a "can't" mentality. Why? I am not sure. But the reality is that I have begun to rely on food again as an emotional crutch. Not to the degree I used to, but it is definitely a pattern. My plan for this week is simply to not eat like a hog. Compared to the holidays, it should be fairly easy. Next week I will track my food without trying to make drastic alterations. And then I will tweak to up protein/lower sugar.

Monday, January 7, 2013

Working Out

I decided to work out with my trainer again once per week. Tonight was my first night, and not a great way to start out. I got almost no sleep last night, had a rare bout of insomnia, and have a bit of a cold coming on. Still, I gave it all I had, and ended up feeling really wiped out and a little weak and clammy, which I consider a plus! My goals for the week are to work out with weights 2 more times, do one round of Brazil Butt, and do treadmill twice. I need to work on food planning as well, but will leave that for next week. One thing at a time ....

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Back to Basics

Hard to believe that I have not posted here for 8 months. In those 8 months, I reached a new low weight (50 lbs lost) in June, then gained 10 of those pounds back. Not good enough!